Thursday, June 3, 2010

Learning is a gift , even when pain is your teacher.







Today was a good and a bad day. It became clear to me that I have to live with us and take a position themselves to make it clear that all is not what they seem. I hate people who lie a face as if they were angels, I found people whom to trust and whom I really care about very much. I helpd My Best Friend, strange to say it has existed ever since my best friend for words of love and life, now is they are both there but I can not be sure how long, as my good friend said to me,''the boys are coming and all the changes, Friends''has been and will remain only a few days ago, I began to realize how important that phrase really is. Just a few days ago I realized my life is missing is someone I do not know who or what but nobody is. I never cried because I did not "beneficiary"
I wanted to. Now I have it all there and nothing goes. It was not until recently that I began to think that someone else knows where I say that my life is crap then somewhere in the world is to end on such a life. should be happy, enjoy life and find all happens in nature,
I just might not be just another reason to know. I do not know what I am waiting for a

This is not the life I wanted to own than the small.








täna oli suht hea ja suht halb päev . Mulle sai selgeks et ma pean siin elus mingi positsooni võtma ja enale selgeks tegema et kõik ei ole sellised nagu nad tunduvad . Ma vihkan inimesi kes valetavad sellise näoga nagu nad oleksid inglid , leidsin endale inimese keda usaldada ja kellest ma tegelikult väga palju hoolin . Aitasin oma parimat sõbrannat , imelik on seda öelda sest kunagi ei eksisteerinud minu jaoks sõnu parim sõbranna ja elu armastus nüüd on need mõlemad mul olemas kuid ei saa kindel olla kui kauaks nagu ütles mulle mu hea sõber ´´ poisid tulevad ja jäävad kõik muutub , sõbrad on olid ja jäävad ´´ alles paar päeva tagasi hakkasin mõistma kui tähtis see lause telgelikult on . Alles paar päeva tagasi sain aru on mu elust on keegi puudu ma ei tea kes või mis aga keegi on . Kunagi nutsin ma sellepärast et ma ei saand mida ma tahtsin . Nüüd on mul see kõik olemas ja miski ei möödu . Allest hiljutsi hakkasin mõtlema et mida tunneb keegi teine kui mina ütlen et mu elu on sitt siis kuskil teises maailma otsas ihaltatakse endale sellist elu . tuleb olla õnnelik , ja leida elust rõõmu , k6ik juhtub põhjusega ,
ma lihtsalt ainult veel ei pruugi seda põhjust teada . Ma ei tea mida ma endast oota

see ei ole see elu mida ma väiksest peale endale soovisin .

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